Into the Streaming World.

Yes. I have taken the leap. The very..scary...leap.

I am now a twitch streamer.

I got my PC up, found my camera and have set everything up.

I'm still figuring set up though. Like how to put music on stream through youtube. I would play from Itunes but I'm pretty sure I'm not allowed to do that.

I'll be streaming random wow happenings, maybe some RaiderZ (f2p game that is actually pretty fun) and who knows what else.

I've already dealt with my fair share of trolls but their easy to ignore.

There are some issues with my computer though. After my husband took it apart, cleaned it, added a new graphics card and updated everything to 64 bit it likes to crash. Not only windows ( which is rarer then the other crashes) but sometimes wow will crash or Xsplit. Even without streaming wow and the computer will crash at least 3 times in 4 hours. It's a problem that is being addressed plus there are plans for the building of what will be the beastiest computer I have ever owned.

This will take awhile though, so I just ask if you start following the stream please bear with me through the hiccups.

When I find my missing wish list for the computer I'll post it but for now....HUSBAND AGGRO!

Ivy4life! <stream here

Warning-contents may not be suitable for all audiences. Viewer discretion is advised.

Motivation.

-I have none. In the works however is a actual post. I promise you this

Drama and Love.

First, real life stuff then on to todays post.

Still struggling to get the house together after TMO bombarded us with stuffz.

SO.MUCH.STUFF!

It's slowly, very slowly coming together though. My favorite desk is set up with both my mac and my pc. ( I'm hoping to have a friend actually build me one that meets some specific criteria. "I want to run wow on ultra settings like a boss AND raid." ) I will be testing it in a bit tonight with wow and Raiderz to see how it does at the moment. The funny thing is, my mac is a 25" screen and completely dwarfs the poor little 15" pc monitor. It really is a sight. Maybe I'll take a pic later and post it for the lawls.

The pc is ABSOLUTELY nothing special. Husband bought it and the desk for $300 JUST so I could try starwars. lol. It has a new motherboard though. That's good right?  *knows nothing really about computers*

RANDOM MEME TIME!

Who else has a cat that does this?

Creeps me all out.

 

 

Anyway, on to wow.

 

 

I nearly left my horde guild.

 

Yes. My perfect guild.

 

Some major personality clashes erupted from vaults. I felt personally attacked though others think otherwise.

 

There had been a few other problems as well but the first three raid days sealed it for me. My husband had made it clear that one more time of him coming home to find me in tears over someone in a video game he was going to gquit me himself. Well that last day he caught me again and I had to physically fight him away from the computer. I loved this guild and I didn't want to leave it, yet I felt I couldn't take what I had been taking any longer. Nothing in the game was really fun for me and only a handful of people in guild could make me smile. Raids certainly weren't any fun. At all.

 

I sent a letter to my guild leader telling her about the situation and giving her my apologies for being yet another flaker. 

 

She rushed online. Her and a few others talked me out of my emotional decision.

 

My leader bent over backwards to make me stay and make sure I was happy.

 

I was at a loss for words.

 

I was still crying heavily from the turmoil and also from how loved I felt by my guild.

 

My husband said "One person can ruin the whole", but those few made me feel more love from people I barely know then I could have imagined.

 

The person in question however has me confused.

 

We USED to be on real id, we USED to chat and make each other laugh outside of raids. Not anymore.

 

I realized a little while after the incident after we had a talk about how we were still cool with each other that he had taken me off real id and was generally ignoring/avoiding me.

 

Well, if that's how its going to be *shrug* then so be it. I'm actually amazing happy to pretend he doesn't exist. I don't have time to deal with that kind of stuff anyhow. There are too many smiles/laughs/perverted moments to be shared with those I love and trust in this guild. Those super close to me have my real id for 'just in case' along with YOU HAVE TO MANY TOONS syndrome. (cept one but I keep forgetting to ask. -_-  lazyitis)

 

Anyway, to make me feel at home and take away my stress I have been placed on a different raid team as a *le gasp* healer instead of a tank. I'm perfectly fine with this. Healing is fun and it's where I began in wow.

 

I'm back to my resto druid roots.

 

I love the unity that healers can have and yet still be competitive.

 

I frequently find myself having to be the one to "herd" them though.

 

I don't mind handing out assignments or trying to plan things though. I like puzzles so trying to work out things here and there is no big deal.

 

Plus, back in the day I found myself as heal lead for Naxx. 25 man. *looks back and sighs*  Good times. Just two friends and a bunch of recurring pugs every week.  Downing what our own guilds on 10 man were failing at. That and my roots are stories for a different day though.

 

I'm going to give a shout out to the Wolf Pack of Llane and their amazing and hardworking guild leader, KittyKat.

 

Many of you are like my best friends and I can come to you for anything. Others I'm on my way to getting closer to. Thanks to those who are able to comfort me when I need it, make me smile when I frown and cause me to die of laughter when I least expect it. You're all the best!

 

 



The unveiling

And here as promised I bring you.......

IVYHOOF VS AKASENDO

FIRST.....the line art.

DUN DUN DUN

SECOND...the finished project.

I have to admit... 

I think my husbands rogue looks damn sexy in this picture, but DOWN WITH THE ALLIANCE!

A BIG THANKS TO 

    Katondra

FOR THE PICTURE.

I LOVE YOU TO BITS AND I LOVE THIS DRAWING! <3

It's the little things....

....that make you want to rip your hair out.

(sometimes)

So pretty much a non wow post so BE WARNED!

Our TMO came in today.

YAY!


I should have felt like this.....

BUT INSTEAD....I felt like this.

Happy rainbow version for people with weak stomachs.

It should be a happy time, but because I'm me feeling bad for..get this... making them do their job, I opted to unpack everything myself. Also because I felt if they did it I would be lost in my own house and not know where a single thing was.

ANYWHO, they left and know my husband and I are swimming in what seems to be the hell of unending boxes.

Save me. Save me now. 

Plus there is stuff that I know is here somewhere that I want so bad.

For instance. The keyboard for my IMac. (It was the first thing I eyed up coming off the truck. Couldn't not use it.) Here I am making tons of noise and fumbling on this pc keyboard and I know my lovely true keyboard is somewhere.... mocking me.

Times infinity

Add that to the swarp of eternal boxes, the fact that we're eating cereal till pay day, personal issues within guild and the stress of OMG GET TO 90 NOW and... yea. i can't post enough pictures of my blowing my rainbow brains out. *sigh*

Well, back to the boxes.

pss- when I'm all done with this hell I'll get on my laptop and post the picture I was promising. It's coming. I swear!

New upcoming picture!

There's been a continuous thread running around the general forums for pictures of characters.

Well, I asked a talented certain person,    Katondra , to draw me one of my husband and I fighting.

My husband plays a alliance worgen rogue. HISSSSSSS!  

So far.. the tidbit of editing he fed me only made me hungrier to see it done. Keep in mine this is only pieces of the photo as a teaser, not the actual complete picture.

*quivers* I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE IT!

Stay tuned for the final unveiling!

A little bit o'update, a little bit of rage and a little bit o'rambling.

Things everywhere and everything is just pressure, pressure, pressure and just seem out of control.
I did a naughty thing that didn't help matters either. I ran out of meds and just... didn't get any more.

*FACEPALM*

I don't really know or understand why I didn't either. My brain always came up with some invisable excuse not to. I got way over stressed and was horribly irritable. (Though I swear my anxiety meds to jack.)  How my husband put up with me I have no idea, but I love him for it.  I handed over the reins of finance and everything else to my husband because I just couldn't take it anymore. 

He fails at it.

(I was looking for a demotivation pic that reads 1 + 1 = DERP to tease him but i failed and couldn't be asked to make one myself)

Somehow I regained my sense and went to the pharmacy to get my meds. Two weeks back on track now after a month and a half off. ROLLER COASTER ZONE that was.

Anywho, I'm good now and we are in the middle of moving into a new house on base. Most of our bill problems will now go away and we will be able to relax and having breathing room.  Our bills are halved. *Thanks the deity who's existence she doubts* <if you get that reference +100 internets to you.

ONTO THE RAGE!

So I called our landlord peoples and gave them the 30 day notice they asked for when we signed the lease. We're mid move and my husband decides we should go in and talk to them. They NOW say it had to be in writing. Keep in mind this is the first time either of us have EVER had our own house off base. We were very naive. They never mentioned to me on the phone either that it had to be in writing, otherwise I would have been in their office that day.  Since it wasn't in writing guess who has to pay ANOTHER months rent for a house we're not even going to be in.  That already had me riled up.

NEXT they gave us a list of everything that needed to be cleaned before we're out and how much they will charge if it's not done/not to their standards. Pissing me off some more. THEN she told us the carpets had to be professionally cleaned. My husband had already cleaned the carpets himself and he USED to be a professional at it. They didn't need it but by god did they look better then when we got there. But no, we still have to pay a company or the agent people to get it done. By this time I'm red hot with anger but I sat there and let him take the beating. I should have opened my mouth, I should have turned off the switch to my filter, I should have caused a scene in front of the other residents, but I kept it quiet for the sake of my husband and his job. Boy did I chain smoke and rage in the car though as he stayed quiet before finally laughing at me and angering me more. He loves to troll me and push buttons.

You're right if you think I didn't let it go. I did the only sad pathetic thing I could do. Post on the base facebook. BUYER BEWARE!

So not only this, but our internet at our new house is shoddy, having many a technical issue with our electronics and a run around with blizzard I'm not going to go into because they FINALLY helped me. After two days and 4 hours worth of time on the phone.

Now that's out of my system. Lets chat about mop.

I got one of my druids to 90 and toyed around on Beta and yes, I leveled guardian.

Many people would scoff at this. Some tried it and hated it. I loved it though. It wasn't terribly slow and I completely enjoyed being able to round up a bunch of mops and cackle at them as they tickled me. 

Dependent on what quest it was, it was also nice to be able to stealth passed everything just to pop out as bear and go OH HAI to whatever boss I had to fight. Yes that tickled me.

Plus when quest boredom snuck up (which it does often for me. I HATE questing.) I could just q up for a dungeon and rock it out.

And personally I think the new dungeons are awesome fun. Except for the damn barrels breaking my shapeshift. ';..;' 

I WAS working on my plan for my gearing strat for pre heroics and pre raid but my computer decided it didn't like it and I lost everything.  Frustrated and demotivated I won't be working on it again. I'm just going to wing it. THATS RIGHT FLYING FREE BABY!

Since I've gotten everything out of my system and don't feel like such a loser with no new posts anymore I'll be on my way.

(side thought. one day I'll explain why my blog is called kaw kaw get in the bag. heads up, it's a inside joke with a best friend)

GOOD HUNTING EVERYONE!